Some things you do just to see how bad they'll make you feel sometimes you try to freeze time til those thoughts are a blur of spinning wheels but I am just a broken machine and I do things that I don't really mean long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost speed up to the precipice and then slam on the brakes some people crash two or three times and then learn from their mistakes but we are the ones who don't slow down at all and there's nobody there to catch us when we fall long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost feel the storm every night, hope it passes by hallucinate a shady grove where Judas went to die unfurl the black velvet altar cloth draw a white chalk baphomet mistreat your altar boys long enough and this is what you get sad and angry, can't learn how to behave still won't know how in the darkness of the grave long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost.

ABOUT ME

I'm a postgrad student who by some turn of chance ended up in a digital humanities degree, so I'm using the coding practice I have to do as an opportunity to finally work on my own website. Before that, I was in a Medieval Studies programme, and even before that, I was a Classics student in undergrad. Now, my main interest is film: cinematic history and watching movies. So I've sort of been all over the place. I'm sort of a medieval monk at heart, so I want to compile everything I know and like on there.

Why Spent Gladiator(ism)?

The phrase comes from two songs by American band The Mountain Goats, Amy aka Spent Gladiator 1 and Spent Gladiator 2. They are songs about making it out through hard times, and staying alive, just staying alive. The Mountain Goats got me through some very difficult moments in my life, and with friends I have a joke about how there's Amy aka Spent Gladiator 1, there's Spent Gladiator 2, and there's me aka Spent Gladiator 3.

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